Once in my birthday my mom took me to the nicest fancy goods store we knew and allowed me to pick quite a bit of brazilian reais worth of scented gel pens and cute erasers.
Well, things have changed dramatically since then. But my love of Asian culture only increased and I kept being a fan of the cute, though there were times when I was more inclined to creepy and cute. Once my father had to search all over New York City to find me a Gloomy Bear, that happened in 2007 I still have it and love it.
Kawaii this and that, pastel colors, cute characters and what about clothes? I must have a very sweet style right?? Well, not at all.
I've always felt uncomfortable wearing pink, dresses and skirts. I'm a big fan of black, gray, white and army green, I love wearing Vans, black skinny jeans, combat boots, loose T-shirts and I usually get my stuff at Zara. And I like the way I dress, I feel safe and I feel myself even if my outfits heavily contrast with the white furniture and pink items in my room. Sometimes I wear white or nude, navy and some pastel colors but probably only when I go on a date with my boyfriend. I just can't wear a skirt when walking alone on the street because I'm terrified I'll get raped, I'll talk about that on another post.
Well thing is even though I do feel comfortable pairing my Doc Martens with my leather jacket sometimes I feel like a need to wear something that makes me feel special.
|Picture from my personal IG account (@audreyymaciel) with my usual clothes|
I knew one thing or another about J-fashion but six months ago I didn't even know what fairy kei was. I knew lolita because whenever I go to an Animecon kind of event I see lolitas walking around and they even have their own thematic room called "Lolita Tea Party". During all the years I went to those conventions to meet my fellow k-poppers I never really paid much attention to the lolitas and if I did my impressions on their clothing weren't the best I guess there are two main reasons for that:
1. I met "itas" instead of Lolitas
2. The brazilian lolitas are not always nice looking. Though I later discovered some of them look amazing, most of them look terrible I'm sorry but it's true.
So what the hell got me into Lolita fashion? Well it all started in a very odd way, one day I was scrolling through a random japanese culture related tag on Instagram when I saw a picture featuring this guy:
Not much later I found out about Taobao and shopping services which I initially wanted to use to buy a bunch of My Melody goodies, when I came across the chinese "ebay" I also found a brazilian girl who works doing the SS kinda thing, guess what, she was a lolita. I red through her blog and her posts were frequently about lolita fashion I didn't really love her posts nor her style but her blog led me to another brazilian lolita blog and that one was way more interesting. I really enjoyed reading her posts about lolita fashion and its peculiarities but I still didn't feel encouraged to wear lolita myself. Few weeks later I saw this random australian girl on Instagram wearing this dress: